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Once You Know
by Madeleine Van Hecke
Review

 

HAPPY OFFICIAL PUBLICATION DAY, MADELEINE!

If you enjoy this review and think the book might be one you would like to read, stop by on October 18th, when Madeleine will be joining me with a really interesting Guest Post.

Madeleine requested to have her Guest Post published post review, in anticipation that the review would provide a little more context for the essay, helping it to pique more interest in any unanswered questions and observations, arising from the storyline.

ONCE YOU KNOW

Cover image of the book 'Once You Know' by author Madeleine Van HeckeFeisty, Irish-Catholic Colleen Moretti thrust the letter into the back of a drawer. Her plan: ignore the fault line until the tremors pass. But her husband’s betrayal is far worse than Colleen suspects.

In this complex story of a family unraveling, both Colleen and her college-age daughter Rachel struggle to maintain their balance amidst feelings of love and loss, anger and betrayal. A gifted cellist, Rachel escapes into her music and her campus life, including her burgeoning romance with her first real boyfriend. But her coming of age tale is fraught with complications from what’s happening in her family. In her desperation to sustain hope, Colleen turns a blind eye to Rachel’s struggles. Instead, she clutches to her faith that preaches forgiveness and to the tender memories that preserve her image of the man she has known her husband to be. Mixed in this soup is eight-year-old Izzy, whom both Colleen and Rachel try to protect from the fallout of this conflict.

With two daughters caught in the middle of a crumbling marriage, one who would love to see her father cut out of their lives and the other who would be crushed to lose him, Colleen is trapped in a no-win situation. Colleen finally realizes she can’t save her daughters, her marriage, and herself, so… who will she choose?

MADELEINE VAN HECKE

Image of author Madeleine Van HeckeOn stage… Madeleine is a nonfiction author (Blind Spots, Prometheus Press, 2007 and The Brain Advantage, Prometheus Press, 2011)

A former college professor (North Central College, Naperville, IL) where she taught courses in psychology, creativity, and critical thinking.

A lecturer (Common Ground, Deerfield, IL)

And a game inventor (Wicked Words)

Behind the scenes… Madeleine has been a closet fiction writer, now able to use her retirement years to study the craft of novel writing intensively.

In her personal life Madeleine is a widow who still wears her wedding ring and her husband’s old flannel shirts on cold winter mornings. Greg Risberg, the love of her life who made her laugh nearly every day, died in 2014. Her daughter Kalyn, son David, and granddaughter Claudia are her great joys in life.

Keep up to date with all Madeleine’s news on her website

“Like a symphony, a novel is incredibly complex. It has so many moving parts and blends different character voices.”

Cover image of the book 'Once You Know' by author Madeleine Van Hecke

FIRST LINE

CHAPTER ONE

“The moist spring air smelled of newly-mown grass, and Colleen inhaled it greedily, as if the past dry months living in Arizona had left her parched.”

Cover image of the book 'Once You Know' by author Madeleine Van Hecke

MEMORABLE LINES

“But Collen was not the sort of woman who stuffed her anger down into some dark place. Get it out! That was her philosophy.”

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“See, that’s what happens. One lie leads to another, and in the end the truth comes out, and then where are you?”

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“A tantrum – that’s like a thunderstorm, you know? A big burst, but then it’s over. Disappointment is like a dreary rainfall that can go on for days.”

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“Forgiveness is a choice, not a feeling. The first choice involved in forgiveness is the choice to let yourself feel the hurt.”

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“Forgiveness is an act of compassion, because it is very hard to be hurt by the people we love. But it is also very, very hard to be the person who needs to be forgiven.”

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“I don’t know where to go with what happened to me, There must be some other place, somewhere between ‘no big deal’ and hating him. But I don’t know how to get there.”

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“She’d failed to recognise an essential truth about reverse figures. Both were always there, regardless of which you perceived at any given moment. No matter how often she managed to keep her focus on the loving husband and the good father, Derek the paedophile persisted as well.”

Cover image of the book 'Once You Know' by author Madeleine Van Hecke

REVIEW

“Everything was normal, just ‘different'”

First off, I make no apology for the amount of memorable lines I have shared from this amazing book! There were Oh! so many to choose from, however sooner or later I would have got into ‘spoiler’ territory, and I simply couldn’t allow that to happen, so I had to stop! You really do need to read this one for yourself, in fact everyone should read this book for themselves!

When author Madeleine Van Hecke first made contact, she began by commenting that she particularly resonated with the review I had written for a certain book, many years ago now, but which I still remember for the deep emotional imprint it left on me. So when I read Madeleine’s resume and her book’s premise, I knew I was probably going to be up for reading a difficult storyline in this, her debut novel, and she has done a great job at not revealing too much in the synopsis. She does say right at the outset however, that the story has a trigger point of the  Me Too movement, which may make it a disturbing read for some, but BOY! I had no idea what I was letting myself in for! I devoured the book in two rather lengthy sittings, which was probably my biggest mistake, as I was left a quivering emotional, but angry wreck, by the time I reached the final page, although there was a closure to the story which I wasn’t really expecting and left me with a little feel good moment right at the end of my reading!

The main focus of this well constructed storyline, was one of familial abuse, both physical and mental. However the expanded, wider storyline was intense, complex and multi-layered, with so many different strands of what were essentially separate events with similar themes of abuse, happening or having happened to several different individuals. At first I thought it to be a rather excessive display within such a relatively small cast of characters, but after experiencing how carefully and thoughtfully all the various individual experiences were exposed piecemeal, then expertly transformed and gathered into a single narrative, I could quite see how this scenario could be extended out into the reality of everyday life in our modern times. You never truly know what goes on in people’s lives behind closed doors, just how fragile a facade of normality can be and how easily it can be irrevocably shattered.

The fluid narrative and dialogue was compelling, troubling, explicit and harsh; but masterfully written, with a desperate intensity and with the total authority and intuitive confidence that the author is carrying the reader along on the journey with her. Madeleine effortlessly introduces new characters to the cast, then watches as their lives become inextricably linked by a common bond, observing their tenuous hold on relationships and often on reality itself. The gripping, almost voyeuristic storyline, touches on just about every human emotion and social exploitation of our modern day world, but it is dealt with and described so vividly and descriptively, yet compassionately, that Madeleine’s words and dialogue add great depth, meaning and humanity to the telling of stories full of pain, destruction and redemption.

This is very much a character driven storyline and Madeleine has certainly created a complex, damaged, multi-faceted cast of characters who stand up well to scrutiny, despite the fact that I was personally unable to relate to any of their troubled, life circumstances, and often didn’t find their personalities likeable, or their actions well considered or logical. However, I soon learned that before you judge someone, you need to have walked a mile in their shoes, a good lesson for me! When I first encountered Rachel’s psychologist, Monica, I must admit that the sceptic in me took over almost immediately. However the power of her verbal communication with Rachel and the direction in which she was able to lead the meetings, almost without Rachel being a willing party and often with Rachel deliberately trying to undermine the outcomes, was very powerful and life-changing not only for Rachel, but also subliminally, for so many of  her family and friends. Monica’s intelligent listening skills and comforting, yet strangely unsympathetic words of encouragement, added a thoughtful new dimension to so many intrinsically linked reactions, which would eventually determine the outcomes for so many people.

Whilst ‘listening’ to Monica speak to Rachel, I fast came to the conclusion that the victims all suffered with self-esteem issues, which had left them searching for a sense of belonging in their broken lives. Whilst I realised that they neither wanted nor needed my own, or anyone else’s sympathy, they craved having their voices heard by an understanding, non-judgemental ear, who was not going to offer advice, rather guidance and support, while they worked through their own feelings and emotions, before deciding how to face the outside world and share their long supressed memories and experiences, with confidence and at peace with themselves. There is pain and shame which needs to be acknowledged, selfish thoughts and feelings of self hatred and worthlessness to be controlled and expunged. Image, self-loathing and addiction issues, all seem to go hand in hand. However at some point, to be able to move on and leave events behind, even if they are never forgotten, you need to own up to the memories and own the situation, be able to put them in a box with the lid well and truly closed, except for the times when you choose to remember in whatever guise that takes.

On the reverse side of the same coin, you have Colleen! What would you do as someone who learns of the abuse of someone you love, but yet about which you knew nothing? Do you rant and rave blaming everyone except yourself. Do you bury your head in the sand and try to make believe that allegations are exaggerated and that nothing could possibly have happened or you would have known. Do you even have the audacity to partially blame the victim in an attempt to protect the perpetrator who just wouldn’t be capable doing of such a thing. Do you really begin to show compassion towards the perpetrator, in the believe that they should be given another chance because they will have definitely changed and reformed. Do you only think of the consequences for yourself, somehow putting yourself at the front and centre as the injured party?

When do you begin to open your heart and mind to the victim, be prepared to really listen to them, then work together to find a way through the quagmire which will slowly suck you all in if you somehow don’t reverse the tide. When do you put your family before yourself and have the courage to take the side of ‘right over wrong’?

Madeleine does include some potential discussion points at the end of the book, which would form the basis of a robust debating platform for a book club or group. There are so many facets to both the storyline and characters, which are so certain to have made a unique impact on almost every individual reader, that there will be a myriad of thoughts and opinions.

This is definitely one of those books which makes reading such a wonderful experience, because as a reader I felt that I had been taken on a unique and individual journey.

This might be a work of fiction, however it does a great service to the cause of the Me Too movement and is an excellent reflection of the cultural and social history of our times, just waiting to be discovered by future generations of readers.

Image of author Madeleine Van Hecke

A complimentary download of this book for review purposes, was kindly made available by the author, Madeleine Van Hecke.

Any thoughts or comments are my own personal opinion and I am in no way being monetarily compensated for this, or any other article which promotes this book or its author.

I personally do not agree with ‘rating’ a book, as the overall experience is all a matter of personal taste, which varies from reader to reader. However some review sites do demand a rating value, so when this review is posted to such a site, it will attract a well deserved 5 out of 5 stars and a place on my Goodreads ‘favourite’ shelf!

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Yvonne

I can’t remember a time, even as a child, when I haven’t been passionate about books and reading.
I began blogging, when I realised just how many other people out there shared my passion for the written word and I have been continually amazed at the wealth of books that are available and the amount of great new friends I have made, from literally 'The Four Corners Of The World'.

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4 comments
    • You are more than welcome and it was great to be able to include this amazing story in your lovely ‘reading for travellers’ catalogue, even though many of us are only ‘armchair travellers’ these days 🙂

  • What an excellent review, Yvonne! You’ve highlighted so many wonderful points and reasons to read this novel. It sounds like a powerful storyline. I’ll certainly keep in it mind, both on an individual basis and as a potential book club selection.

    • Hi Kelly,

      As ever, I thank you for your lovely kind words, I always appreciate your comments 🙂

      This one was quite a tough read, as I really wanted to shake the character of Colleen, until she rattled. I can’t believe that any mother would react in quite the way she does, especially with another younger daughter on the scene. But as I said in my review, I am probably far too quick to judge someone before I have put myself in their shoes.

      Madeleine’s Guest Post on Sunday, is really interesting and there is a great link to Book Club discussion points she has highlighted, although I think you might have a tough job persuading everyone to read the book.

      Some of the Goodreads comments really surprised me, but then I guess the subject matter is such, that some people just want to close their eyes and ears to what is going on around them!

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